Big decisions loom on at least a yearly basis: do I stay or do I go?
"Where you go, I'll go, where you stay, I'll stay. When you move, I'll move. I will follow..."
It's hard to count the number of transitions I and my family have faced in life. Each time, I feel anxiety. I love efficiency. I want to use every year of my life for God, not wasting time 'waiting'. I want to give a good account to the master. In this next transition, I can either feel peace by not trying to plan it or rest uncomfortably in recognized indecision. God, however, does not seem to value efficiency in the same way I see it. Is it godly to waste time now being anxious to not waste future time? In my pride I use efficiency as a cover for wanting to avoid discomfort and dependence.
So here I am, craving the resolution and stability offered in his promise of eternal life.
"Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen." - Hebrews 13:20-21
That is truly my prayer. Thanks be to God for what we can choose some things, and may he give us wisdom and due diligence.
Uh oh, better change your bio to include your fourth child!
ReplyDeleteSo so true Mary and definitely resonates with me! I have been waiting on God too, and it is never on my timetable! Grrr -Beth
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