Downcast

Now is probably not a good time to update. I feel stressed; I feel tired. I'm fed up with Ruth disobeying all day long and having to discipline her. I don't like having to do all the home chores myself and having a husband who's tired from working hard at school all day. I don't want to keep getting up every night to feed Michael and get Ruth to the potty and get her back in bed. I'm sad my former neighbor's family is leaving for French study. I miss getting to do 'important' work at school.

But

Why so downcast, oh my soul; put your hope in God...

So I am thankful that potty-training is generally going well, even if it isn't happening today. I'm glad I haven't had to change sheets much. I'm glad Ruth is smart enough to try to be independent and willful. I'm glad she still responds to discipline temporarily. I'm thankful that Michael's a good eater and that I'm able to feed him. I'm thankful that the Z's have moved in next door so we're not all by ourselves. I'm grateful to not be stressed about having the kids ready at certain times in order to be at school. (With Ruth only 2 wks old when I started teaching again, that was always a stress and hassle - making sure she had JUST eaten and was changed and finding Karl to do our handoff.) And I'm SO thankful that my husband works hard at something meaningful and pitches in at home, too.

So my soul is downcast, but I am putting my hope in God - that he has good things planned for me, that my taking care of the kids is meaningful, and that he will sustain us despite...